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It’s been a long time since I’ve written one of these posts. It’s actually been a long time since I’ve done any blog posts at all. Even writing has been difficult. It’s all the fault of the pandemic.
I know I’m not the only person, creative or otherwise, who is tired. Tired of the uncertainty and stress of social distancing, staying home all the time, and mask/vaccine debates. It’s all been very wearing on the morale of many people all over the world.
Even if you’re out and about every day, going to work in-person, shopping, and so forth, it’s still in the back of your mind. You wonder if this is the day you’ll be infected with the virus, and how bad it will be. You wonder if you’ll be allowed the medication you need right away, or if you’ll be told to wait until you have to be hospitalized. You’ll worry about paying the bills if you’re out of sick days, or didn’t have any to begin with. Again, you might not feel worried, but the thoughts will linger in the back of your mind.
I have stayed home for the majority of the last year and some months, and have kept my focus on what’s going on in my house and yard instead of what is happening in the world. Still, I feel the same fatigue. I’m tired, of all the same things everyone else is.
I’ve done what I can to combat negative feelings this past year. I’ve doubled down on God time, though I do still miss days far more often than I should. I’ve made sure to take my vitamins and supplements … C, D, and Zinc included. I limit social media time. I get outside in the sun, I make sure I get plenty of sleep, and I do things I enjoy, including reading and the occasional dirt track race. Despite these measures, I’m still feeling run down.
One of the results of this fatigue is that I’m not getting as much done as I used to, including blog posts. I just don’t have the energy, especially if I have had to leave my house or do physical work. I have lots of ideas, which is an improvement, in my opinion, but the follow-through is almost non-existent.
I don’t like this, at all, and I’m working to fix it.
To that end, I’m going to try a new thing. It’s something I’ve thought about before but have never done. I’m going to record some of my blog posts and upload them to my YouTube channel, starting with this one. Technically, I don’t think it will qualify as a podcast, but it might. I’ve seen other people do “podcasts” that did not have guests or a second speaker.
I have other ideas, as well. An idea for a course I could teach, for one. But, since I can’t seem to put one foot in front of the other for very long right now, I’m not going to jump into the other ones. LOL
You might ask why I would do this. You already have balls you have dropped in the last several months, you say, why would you start something new? I don’t know that I have an answer to that, other than this is a new thing I’d like to try. One of the things the pandemic brought home to me is that there are things I have been putting off for one reason or another and that I should give those things a shot. I could be dead tomorrow, and I have spent a very long time isolating myself (even before the lockdowns began but especially since then.) I’m done with it. I’m going to put myself out there and do some of the things I want to do. If I fail, I fail. But, I might not fail … I might succeed beyond my wildest dreams. So, I have to try.
How has the craziness of the last eighteen months affected you?